Jo is going on vacation tomorrow...

Dear my blog's readers,

I'll be away till next Thursday, going to K.L. for L Convention, then to Bangkok and Pattaya for vacation. I'm all packed and ready to go... it's time for re-charging. See you all next week!

Muaks,
Jo.

Some birthday pix (from office)...

My colleagues did a small birthday celebration for me at the office on my birthday the other day.

From the office...

Today I'm abnormally free in the office, mainly b'cos I have cleared off most of the work items on my TDL (to do list) last week. Well, somehow I'm not used to being so free.

This morning I took out a piece of paper and dropped down a new TDL for my upcoming trip to KL and Bangkok. Yes, I'll be out of town this Friday till next Thursday, off to KL for L convention and Bangkok for vacation. I'm looking forward to the trip, my main focus is shopping and food. However this damn Air Asia only allows 15 kg check-in baggage. How to indulge myself to shop like this??

Anyway, this is the first time I blog from the office. So you can imagine how damn free I am today.

Bin Tua PP!

Eh, si bin tua PP, just when r u gonna upload my birthday pix from ur camera lah!! It's been so many days!!! (need to give this bin tua tang some pressure...)

Inspiration

I found that inspiration is becoming more and more important to me. I have been thinking why I feel so lately. I think it's because I wrote a blog 'What's interesting?' last month. It prompted me to think what I'm interested in and what makes me feel alive. Surprisingly I found the answer in my own blog, i.e. inspiration. Life without inspiration is like a pool of dead water.

I'm no longer interested in knowing the little little things happening day in day out around me, cos' it's endless and meaningless. However I'm interested in finding out what is the indication of some strange things happening occasionally. I'm eager to seek for wisdom, as wisdom is inspiring. I'm also eager to learn new things, new knowledge, anything that I don't know... cos' it's inspiring. That's why I like to watch National Geographic, Discovery, Travel & Living instead of drama channels.

At the wedding dinner, beside looking at the deco and the people, I also think of the meaning of marriage and the importance of blessings. In a meeting where everyone is arguing, I become quiet, as I'm thinking why I am sitting there, what is the point, what causes these people to argue, where is it going, how to end it fast and with results. When I'm watching a movie, beside following the story line, I also like to imagine myself as the director, the script writer or the actor.

Things are so different when you look at it from a different angle. However all these are from my angle. It would be interesting to hear from someone who can see it from another more interesting angle. That's why sometimes when I bump into some interesting strangers, I'm very excited. Especially when they tell me something that I don't know, or teach me some new ways and new knowledge.

Almost everyday now I'm seeking for inspiration, it's an endless process but that's one of my source of happiness. I think I wouldn't mind to give up everything to follow a person with great wisdom. Ancient masters like Jesus, Buddha, Confucious, Socrates etc. are really great people as their teachings are so so inspiring. That's why they have followers even in this modern world.

星雲大師的一些指導

近來我很興趣研究佛學. 我發現它很高深. 它不是神學, 它是來自人類的高度智慧. 覺悟了, 心就找到平靜, 對許多事物的理解也變得簡單. 許多事情原來並不複雜, 是人的心把它複雜化了. 越能包容, 也就越快樂, 越平和.

別以為這僅是一種人生觀, 其實懂的將它巧妙的運用在現實生活中, 甚至是在職場上, 是可以很有效的解決許多問題的.

原來屬於人的智慧, 也可以是如此博大精深. 我實在是很敬佩.


星雲大師的一些指導 :

管理 -管理事情不難, 管理金錢不難, 管理人難, 管理自己更難. 要學管理, 先學會管理自己的心, 管理好自己的心, 做甚麼都不難.

身口意 - 身做好事, 口說好話, 心存善念.

空 – 空囊括了有和無. 有也會變無, 無亦會變有. 空即是色, 色即是空. 心悟空了, 也就圓滿.

包容 – 你包容了他人, 你也就高過他人. 他人包容了你, 他人也就高過你. 你和人敵對, 兩敗俱傷. 相互包容, 則雙贏.

包容的量和度 – 也許某些事情上像是吃虧了, 實則不然, 在吃虧的同時, 可能也在其他方面有所獲得.

Birthday thoughts...

I marked this year's birthday as my 10th year after I started working. My life before 24 years old was so so so great, I was a very smiley girl, everyday was full of happiness. However for the past 10 years, there has been a lot of up and down. I spent 6 years+ in a relationship that ceased with me in depression. The following 2 years, I was trying hard to recover and to discover the new dimensions in my life. Thank God and my dad, I finally climbed back to stand on my feet again. Somehow I seem to have lost that naturally happy side of me. I become a very clear minded person, can see through many things easily. That somehow makes me lost the interest and the fun to explore many things, as I know what would be the outcomes. I constantly seek of the meaning of life, seek for new inspiration, but I haven't found. That makes me unhappy inside and I'm not sure if I'll be happy again. 曾经沧海难为水, I guess it's a sad thing to lose the innocent and to be forced to grow up to see this real world which is not that beautiful all the time. At this point, I'm thinking everyday of where I'm going next to find my happiness back. What can really make me happy again?? Guess I must have withdrawn all my happiness during my childhood and teenage time. Well, that's some of my thoughts for this year's birthday. Hopefully I can find the answer this time next year.

Birthday treat (16 April 2007) - Hilton Steak House

My internet is slow like a snail these few days... amboi...

Just uploaded some pix... these were taken on the day before my birthday, dinner treat by Pig Pig and PP at Hilton.

The starter & appertizer

The main course - Lamb rack, Tenderloin steak & Sirloin steak

The chefs preparing our desserts - Crepes & Cherries Jubilee with ice-cream

Pig Pig, me & PP

It was surely a heavy calories boosting session... thanks for such an expensive dinner from Pig Pig and PP (our friendship is getting more costly nowadays... hahaha).

There were some pix taken on my birthday but it's in PP's camera and she hasn't uploaded them yet... so wait lah!

Bangkok Thai

Last night I went to 'Bangkok Thai' restaurant with Pig Pig and PP. We ordered pineapple rice, tom yam soup, red curry mussels, bilin with red wine, sweet & sour chicken and the thai mix desserts.

We were very hungry but then the food didn't come out until 1/2 hour later. The air-con was very cold there. Just when PP's face was about to turn from grey to black, the food came (luckily...hehe). Wow, I must say having a sip of tom yam soup when one is cold and hungry is so full of kick.

We ate till we 'peng', can't walk properly cos' we were so so so full. I was the one who paid the bill but yet I got scolded by the 2 of them for making them 'suffering' by eating so much. These people ah...

On my way back, I was telling myself that I must do some exercise before I hit the bed. Well guess what, when I reached home I just couldn't help feeling sleepy and went straight to bed.

This morning I woke up feeling very thirsty. I felt the burning sensation when I pee and the urine was so yellowish. Gee... I guess they must have put too much MSG and spices in the tom yam soup. It tasted great but the after affect is 'great' too.

How about you, PP?

The follow up story of 'A Nose Bleeding Day'...

Friday I received an email from 'that lady' in my previous blog 'A Nose Bleeding Day'.

She wrote something like this...

'I would like to apology for my blunt and harsh words the other day...' (the rest I forgot)

Well I replied her 'It's okay, no hard feelings'...

Well, what did she expect me to say??... after causing me my bleeding nose and overshot blood pressure.

It's like killing someone and then say 'oops... soli-lah' (with the tongue sticking out like this ;p).

A Nose Bleeding Day...

Today I shouted at someone in the office.

The story goes like this. 1-2 months ago, I found some issues with one of my devices. So I form a team involving engineers from another 3 departments to solve the issue. 2 of the engineers from Operation are very cooperative and have contributed a lot to finding the root cause but the remaining 1 person from OPI (a china engineer) is very snobbish, lazy, reluctant to involve and didn't contribute much at all. Anyway we let him be.

After running some experiments, we managed to narrow down to one specific process and we found something technically new and interesting. Suddenly that china engineer started to involve another girl from his group, 2 of them are 1 of the kind. When we requested data from them, they will play hide and seek and we never get anything. However they sat in to get spoon fed with all our findings and ideas.

Last week, I setup a brainstorming session to study the interesting root cause and we came out with a very interesting hypothesis which we found some articles that support the hypothesis. So we decided to plan for another experiment to further zoom in to the root cause. In the end of the session, that china engineer and the lady who have been sitting there not contributing anything stood up and denied our proposal for the experiment and asked us to send all the materials to them for them to 'decide' on the experiment direction.

Yesterday, that lady sent out an email and cc to many people on her 'decision' to do the experiment. She further denied all our previous findings, said it's all wrong. Then she attached her 'finding' which basically copied our idea. Moreover she 'decided' their group will do this on their own.

Come on, who do they think they are!

So I called the lady up this morning reminding her that this project is a team work and I'm the project leader, not her, she must get this right. Then she said she knew the root cause at the beginning, our previous experiment is redundant etc. OMG, she wasn't even involved when we first designed the first experiment. That china guy also didn't contribute anything to find the root cause. Now when they see this could be a huge performance, they decided to take over the project.

The lady actually asked me to let her take over the project from now on. Furthermore she said she will decide who to involve in the project and she wanted to get rid of the 2 operation engineers. She thinks her group is the one with process experience. I challenged her on how many years she has worked in process and how many DOE has she done before that makes her said such thing. What a fxck does she know! So I scolded her for having no team spirit, not professional, no respect and shame on her and her china colleague for stealing other's work!

(Later I found out she is just a junior engineer with 2 years working experience. The other engineers and I have 10 years working experience!!)

When she didn't know what to say, she passed her phone to her china colleague. He said they have different working style, all the while they just do whatever they feel like. If I'm not happy, he asked me to talk to their boss. I told him that if this whole plot is from the 2 of them, then they need to answer me and not asking me to talk to their boss as I don't know what they have told their boss! (By the way, their boss is that famous big korean gangster who used to be my boss.)

After hanging up, I went to talk to my boss. My boss went straight to talk to their boss.

Anyway, it's a very bad day to start with. I raised my voice so loud that the whole floor can hear me... Then people started to come around to ask me. After they heard the story, everyone just shaked their head. Shame on this lady and the china guy!!!

Actually I've made it a point to not showing my temper in the office. I wanted to practise high EQ but I found that when I'm dealing with such idiots/gangsters, I just couldn't help but shout my lung out.

Till now, I still can't believe what kind of thick skin animals I have just encountered in this strange company. What a shame!

I love April...

I love April cos' it's my birth month.

This afternoon we had the club's monthly meeting at my place. At the same time, the club members did a birthday celebration for me... hehe.

Meeting and munching in progress...

Secretary at work...

Happy hour started...

I 'heard' there were chicken tarts but by the time I came out from the kitchen, they were all gone... I thought I'm the birthday girl??...

Here comes the birthday girl...hehe...

Group photos

Commercial break ... Trendy specs advertisement.

Thanks guys! Remember to leave some chicken tarts for me next time....

A visual person.

Today at Coffee Bean, I saw a guy who looks like my ex-bf. Not the face but the body shape. Somehow I couldn't take my eyes off him. Then I realized there is actually a specific type of guy that I enjoy looking. Slight curly hair with a clean cut, broad shoulder with musculine hands, wearing musculine watch, noticeable hair on the legs but not too hairy, and wearing comfy Timberland sandals. The body posture looks graceful, not slack or too kay poh.

Joining him was another musculine guy but slightly shorter. PP and I right away guess they are gay as they are both very pleasant looking...hahaha.

I sat there and questioned myself "Did I like my ex-bf b'cos of his character or more of his body shape??"... hahaha well, that's a good question... I think both, but body shape is definitely a bonus. I remember I have 'love at first sight' when we first went out, I think it's b'cos I like his body shape and posture.

So I'm a very visual person I guess... like to judge a book by the cover... haha.

Little Office Entertainment...

My mind is very 'full' lately. I think a lot about my new post, then suddenly the ZC offer came to disturb my thought. Apart from that, my colleagues suddenly started to tease me about a guy at the engineering department downstair. They asked my opinion about the guy, I didn't give it much thought and just commented that he is not bad, seems like this guy is keen on self improvement. Then one of the colleagues kay poh and went downstair to 'chit chat' and teased the guy about me. He came back and told everyone that when that guy heard about me, the face turned all red and ran away.

From then on, everyday they started to talk about this topic non-stop, kept teasing me. I'm actually very open. Well, having good impression on someone doesn't really mean I'm interested in him right. If I avoid talking then they will be even more curious.

Then 2 days ago, that guy came upstair to chit chat with people in my next cubicle and my cubicle. Suddenly the atmosphere became very tense as everyone was there observing my expression. Omg, give me a break. I almost couldn't help laughing.

After he went off, they started to burst into loud laugh and the gossips just went non-stop. I think almost the whole floor can hear the stories these people made up. I stayed cool and calm as usual. How do they expect me to react?

I think my colleagues must be very bored, so they need something juicy to spice their life up. One guy even said something like "Wow I'm so envy, I haven't felt my heart pounding for so so long..." hahaha, what a joke.

To be or not to be (part 2)...

Today I got a call from the incoming Region Chairman from L movement, he said the incoming DG wanna appoint me as Zone Chairman... Omg, here come another decision to make...

I'm so stressed up recently preparing myself in my new position at work, now come another challenge outside work.... I don't think so... So I told incoming RC that I'll be very busy at work, therefore don't think I can accept the offer but he asked me to consider.

Hahaha... am I that capable?? I seriously doubt it. See, I don't like to attend formal dinners, I don't like to chair meetings, I'm kind of anti-social, I don't like to attend cabinet meeting, I hate to deal with those 'ah pek', 'ah mu' in L movement. I want to have an easy, peaceful, happy life. Becoming ZC is everything against my will.

Just why, why, why so many 'to be or not to be' decisions to make???